“So much of you is hidden behind those layers which you are yet to discover”…
I haven’t written for so long, I’m still wondering what to type as my fingers are moving uniformly after a while. At present I’m down with a bad viral which further leaves me in a weak and vulnerable state. Because there has been a long gap since I have written anything for my blog, I am extremely restless and on the verge of an emotional outburst.
I have got so much to say, so much to share, now I have realized the importance and urgency of writing. How much muck can a person take? It is so important to get it all out of your system before these toxic feelings get embedded in you and add on to another unwanted layer. In all of this commotion, tension, worry the way we express and perceive situations make a major difference. In fact all the difference! Unknowingly we soak in so much of unwanted waste in our system which persists as an unresolved issue or unattended emotion which can later on lead to a poor immune system. Not kidding, I am referring to myself and many other people who feel alone in a crowd or a group, feel incomplete and empty because something is missing. Now my hesitation to type and my restlessness is slowly reducing. The reason we feel that way is because we don’t tap in and question ourselves, ask ourselves what’s going on. I feel most of us don’t even fully know who we are and what we can be! Our capabilities, needs, qualities, beliefs, ideologies etc.
On another note I would like to thank all my readers for carefully reading and understanding what I have to say because in today’s times people are in such a hurry to speak that the relatively slow speakers who believe in thinking and then speaking get interrupted and their sentence remains incomplete. Due to that sometimes they are misunderstood.
That is why writing is one of the best mediums for teenagers like me to express myself openly and leisurely without any hesitation and fear of getting interrupted or criticized by anybody. We can’t always protect ourselves from getting criticized and judged but make sure that we don’t inherit such traits.
The feeling of being alone is just a phase until we find that one stable and understanding listener. But when? And who? Maybe that one person is right beside you it’s just that you don’t value him/her enough because he/she is easily available or not that popular and wanted. The day we stop having ‘’types’’ in terms of the people we choose to talk to and on what basis we talk to them we’ll lose one layer of judgement. One doesn’t have to get involved or get into a relationship with the person but make the most out of what they give, value it and move on.
We all have an extremely strong sixth sense called intuition which can only be awakened if we get rid of all those unconsciously existing layers.
These layers get formed in the process of one getting disconnected with oneself. This is when we have several external and tempting objects distracting us. Today people are more of a source of distraction than a source of communication and affiliation. When we try to escape our problems we look for people and objects to be the missing piece of the puzzle.
These layers are nothing but temporary and artificial personalities we inherit in order to adapt to a particular situation but that ends up changing who we are altogether. This takes place with the kind of exposure we get in a day, number of conversations we have, the kind of people we meet and the scripts that run in our mind. These scripts are nothing but past incidences and experiences that have an impact on our present state of being. This hinders our openness and capacity to expand and grow. These layers become an obstacle to our flexibility of believing and doing things, being spontaneous and taking risks. We are great decision makers if we know our strengths and weaknesses well enough.
Unfortunately before one experiences something, an immediate “NO” is placed by them in between them and the experience. Our world is progressing in many ways yet our thinking is piled up with those layers. These layers lead to grudges, revenge, loss of trust, hope, judgement, pre-conceived notions, suspicion, poor sense of decision making, all in all, a sense of displacement in a place like home. You can’t expect yourself to be happy by changing the plot and its characters but rather discover your inner person who is hiding under all those layers, the person who was happy when he looked at himself at the mirror and satisfied with what he has and believes in. Such people are extremely joyful and content being with themselves and don’t have the need to prove anything to the world or gain people by their sides by changing their actual selves and performing messed up emotional stunts. In such a situation we’ll be surprised with the results! If we stop trying fit in, being inauthentic and fake, we will always end up meeting people who genuinely value us and want to know and spend time with that uniqueness in us.
Yes, the number will definitely reduce because now you’re fully yourself but the people who stand by you will be a pillar of support for you always.
As a layperson I believe that everything in this world is not possible but, the power of belief is so strong that whatever you believe with all your mind, heart and soul can actually happen. Even if it is otherworldly for that matter! A person who gets rid of all his layers which is very rare but possible, might be as pure and innocent as he was when he entered the earth as an infant.
So, get rid of these layers which are hindering your individuality….and let go off the past experiences, beliefs, facts!
If you can’t relate to the existing reality you have to create our own!!
The Girl in Vogue…
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